Hey! Major redesign to the website! Check it out!

www.matthewgiuffre.com

Feedback is greatly appreciated. Granted, if you use Internet Explorer, it won't be as neat, which is why you should take this oportunity to download Opera. Much better in every way. It actually just got ranked as the most secure browser, and its just superior. Read about it. I've been using it for four years. Do it. Do it. Oh and for you dorks, its also better than Firefox, which stinks. Although, for mac users Opera isn't as great, since a lot of its beauty comes from having two mouse buttons for navigation, but whatever.

When you go, your computer might still have the old site up, so just hit refresh. I'm very pleased with it.

In other news, zero hour is closing in. I'm moving to North Carolina for no reason in two weeks. First stop is CT to shoot guns with Clay, then to NYC to see everybody. Then NC to paint houses or bus tables for a month, then return and hopefully get an actual job. Who knows. I'm feeling good, even though I drank a lot of cheap Mexican agave liquor last night and my stomach hates me. Its not tequila... its something else.

Oh and I didn't get my grant. Looks like its back to the old ways. Small runs and submiting the comic to publishers and artists. A long-ass road ahead of me.

My problems are becomming redundant so I think that means its time to fix them.

In other news, its hard to find a place to work that you are interested in.

In other news, I'm becoming interested in things I never really thought I would. Like web design. Its really floating my boat right now. I wish it floated my boat about five months ago when I had absolutely nothing to do all the time other than sit around and mope.

I'm trying to learn a chord a day. I think a chord a week is more probable. I cannot make an F minor for the life of me. At least not on the Tiny Guitar. And the big guitar is missing two strings, one of which is integral to the construction of the F minor. F being my favorite note, minor being the mood I've been in.

Auntie Lee put me in touch with a great lady who's going to give me advice in the long hard road of becomming a real-life illustrator. You know, my dream job.

I've been teaching kids lately. Its been great. I got a few stories already. My job is basically pushing kids down and calling them stupid. Pushing them down hard. On concrete. Then ripping up chunks of concrete and putting it on top of them so they can't get up. And if they did I'd do it all again.

And now, I'm going to break out that whiskey Tim got me and code for a little while. Maybe work on the comic I scripted a month ago.

Gabby came back for no reason. I gave her her watch back. I need a new watch.

Another sleepless night. No matter how much time passes its always for the same reason. Oh well. I got a few good ideas for drawings and photos while I struggled. I think I'll start one tomorrow, but we'll see. It's hard to work in JP. The house is madness. But its getting better.

I'm realizing the Seagull is a wonderful camera and one of the greatest gifts I've ever received. I'm going to use it in staged photos and one day blow them up so they're not trapped as 3x5s.

Here's an illustration I did for the MA Family Law Quarterly. Bogus, yeah? At any rate its nice when people remember you from things you did almost a decade in the past.



Whatever. It's nice that while I mostly do the gross and vulgar now I can still pull out the cute when its called for. It was for an article about parents mooching off their successful kids. Vamparents. I'm happy I didn't have to go through that during my good times as a small, lovely boy.

In the morning I'm going to work on something for Brian's book and finally get it off to him. Its been like two months. One day at a time, dog. One day at a time. I'm grossing myself out at my increasing interest in web design. I never wanted to be that guy.

I found a watch in my car. I think it's Gabby's. I'm wearing it. I need one anyway.

The other night Tyler couldn't sleep so I lulled him to bed with guitar. I think that means I'm getting better.

I rode Mel's minicycle the other day. I want a motorcyle real bad now.

I'm done with deviance. All it took was a fight and a few ugly parties to put it past me.

Time for sketch and hopefully sleep. Good night.

She Had Casey's Eyes

So this is what I've been working on. Much more to come, hopefully enough to propose a show by the end of the summer. If the large hadron collider winds up making a small black hole in Europe, remember I love you.

So I guess one fo the most difficult things for a person who strives more than anything to be more altruistic than anything in his life is to experience someone who refuses help. When from your perspective you observe someone gradually getting sadder and colder as time passes and no matter how honest and true your intentions, they just can't accept them. It kills me. Its why I can't sleep. Like right now.

I'm planning on moving away for June and July and getting back in time for JIll's wedding. I'm scared and excited all at once. We went out eight years ago which is insane all on its own, but this is just one of those critical events that show that you're growing and aging. I need to call some people.

I discovered today that that wierd thing I had in September is called Exploding Head Syndrome and I have it, or at least have experienced it. Twice in one week. Look it up, it was terrifying.

My head is swimming. I think I'm going to do what I've never done and take some valerian.

I have two episodes of Waterbear Evwywhere scripted, and I think I might make them comics before the next step. I think I'm going to try to start and finish a comic this week. Maybe the one with the ghost. We'll see.

I'm apparently done with titles. I got another hour or so to kill before I cart ma and pa off to the airport. I spent most of tonight learning CSS and its great. Yet another major redesign to the website soon. Maybe even by next week. Its really fun and exciting and I probably sound like an idiot, but I can make dumb and easy webpages and actually make them look good. A thrilling development. I plan on going to the infamous Doowop Diner in Malden after the airport. I haven't been there in a few months.

My prescience has been bothering me. At least in relation to Gabby. She gave me the heaviest deja vu of my life in Montreal. So heavy that I knew exactly what she was going to say as she said it because it was one of those things that in a way she'd already told it to me, in a dream or something like that. Another example: last night she left Haggerty's party to go to CVS and when she got back I knew exactly what was in her bag. Another dumb thing that's been bothering me.

I'm applying for jobs again. I'd like to have time to at least go to the Carolinas with Tim before it picks up again, but whatever. The drawing's coming along, the writing's coming along. To repeat myself for the thousand time This Is Great. TIG. But really, things have been nothing but great lately. One aspect I'd like to improve but there's nothing I can do about it. Other than that, TIG.

I think I might just make breakfast. Some rockhash and scrambies. We'll see.

I figured out a good band name that's actually pertinant if the thing with Tyler and I works out : Sisyfist. Get it? Its like, Sisyphus pushed that rock and Ty and I are gonna PUSH ROCK to new levels. Right.

So tonight was Haggerty's birthday. Enough said about that.

I spent five hours today as emergency room accompaniment yet again. This time Natalie with a 103 fever. Woof.
I didn't bring a book and felt like I was going to die.

We're going to bed and are all farting.

Outside, birds are singin.

I spent a good amount of time today at City Feed talking to amigos new and old about babies, the circus, anarchy and motorcycles. The more time I spend around my pregnant friends, the more I fantasize about settlin down and getting one. Not yet. I hate it. I just wish I were 30 with a cat, a lady and a good job I could quit to open a cafe at my leisure. Small dreams.

Rock doves. More real jobs opportunities are developing, but people keep asking me to go places. Like the Carolinas. And California. We'll see.